If I didn’t believe that a single persons thought could change the world I wouldn’t be writing anything. Sounds like something someone would say with a huge ego. However it does hold some truth to it. I almost never talk about politics but today I am feeling for lack of a better word Spicy…

I believe in the idea of a Republican. Keyword… IDEA.. I love the concept of a person being born with nothing. Working hard, educating hard and building up to something only to spread that knowledge, Wealth, and ability to others. It’s a very American concept to come to some place with nothing and work hard/fight for something better. It’s what this land was founded on after all. So the concept of a Republican I know is a good one.

However it’s biggest flaw comes in the idea part. Ideas come from people and people are flawed without question. See in a structural concept the knowledge and money would trickle down to those in need. However people tend to take that idea so with it get selfish, emotional, ¬†and lose touch with what it was supposed to be like.

Take a rich person today. Almost none of em want to be taxed, or told what to do with the money. It’s fair to say because clearly they worked hard for it. Some understand the concept but others will say I give back in my own way. Yet those same people feel the survival need of MINE MINE MINE..

Take care of YOUR family, Friends and those around YOU. Not everyone is entitled to the work you have done. It’s a stupid state of mind to be in and in all my time I don’t see it changing any time soon. Hell if the last 2 years has proven anything it’s that our lack of education and understanding has gone down the drain hard.

I just hope that in the future we understand what is best for all of us will be best for the individual as well..



In life we have places that we can go to that hold true magic. For me Toys R Us has always done just that. I feel peace, joy, and my mind goes completely blank for the few moments I am in that spot. It doesn’t matter which Toys R Us I am at. The moment I see those rainbow glowing letters I feel it. Once I enter I feel a true sense of ease and perhaps young again. Almost like time traveling I feel great and everything that pissed me off or got to me in the days before are gone.

I think perhaps it’s like a drug.. but without any of the negative effects. Hard to say considering I have never done a drug in my life. However I would hope that if it feels half as good as that it make it worth it. Having a place like that in my life makes me a very lucky person. Most aren’t that lucky.


Here is what really REALLY makes me angry. People think that everyone has the same opportunity. “Why don’t you get a better job?” Comes from the mouths of so many people and I often ask the question what do you actually know about me? Do you know my family, responsibilities, education level and health record?

Judgement comes from people who have never been judged and if so never looked at a mirror. If you had people who taught you wrong from wronger you probably are on a good foot. If you had friends who took the time to listen chances are you had a benefit. Learned to drive from someone who knew and had the money to do it.

People are strange and I find it often pisses me off that people speak without thinking.


I never liked the saying “I battle with depression”. You don’t battle emotions because a battle by the statement makes it sound like it’s something you can fight and win. Emotions regardless of how good or bad are feelings that people go in and out of. Feeling one way and shortly after NOT feeling that way is simply the state a person is in.

You can’t win at something you simply must let it pass. Anyone who works at night can tell you that at some point you will feel depressed. Isolation, darkness and silence caves in on the mind at some point even if it’s for a short period of time. It’s why we party at night and cover the air in lights when we do it. Light helps keep the mood BRIGHT and cheery if not give it the effect of something like that.

I never questioned my depression much even as a young person. It always came in waves and it went out the same way. Like everything I put far to much thought into it but I allowed myself to dwell on it same as if I was Happy or excited for something. The problem with a negative emotion is really in the statement.. it’s negative so naturally no one likes to feel it.

Yet it does create a balance and it allows some prospective of what is going on in the day. We push past the difficult parts because that is a thing we all must do. We hope the good parts last longer which never happens. Yet we continue to make it happen.