It’s been a long time since I wrote anything here and not from lack of trying. Truth is I have managed to get myself caught up in the situation of life and all it’s grand complications. Work, Family, dealing with basic worries and overall just not finding time for much of anything.

I know that is really what this entire blog is about. Explaining what life is like for the Nocturnal. It’s never been easy but hey here I am again at the very least trying to help here. So let’s restart this with the topic of comforts. Personally I have many things I enjoy doing that bring me comfort. I read, write, and for the most part manage my time pretty well.

I think a big part of what starts to make people comfortable is being familiar with a situation. Organized chaos in ways is how I have heard it being told. A person has to understand basic need and learn to struggle with exceptional want. What are you willing to do to be comfortable?



We have reached the point in the year that things are a new…and DULL!

January and probably the next couple of months are dead months but the work never stops. The big difference is that most people don’t go out during the winter. Go figure people hate the cold “I personally love it!”.. Starting this year has some big changes for me however. I am moving for one, work has progressed, and I have a few goals in mind to accomplish.

Working at night has continued to show me people are also progressively destroying my ideas on intelligence. I don’t think people read  any more and if that’s the case I should probably stop writing. Yet I come to think about it and I was never writing for others it was more for my own capturing of …what…little…sanity I have.

I try to comprehend as always the way people think but it really does surprise me each time people do some … dumb shit… I don’t know.. i’ll write more later…. puff


I was worshiped by many once… a long long time ago. I had this idea to be different once and like many ideas it grew. It got out of hand and I got tired of it. The change as it was so long ago made me feel like myself. Powerful and open minded to say the least.

I would walk around Brooklyn and laugh to myself because everyone couldn’t understand what I was thinking. How I could be so bold in my style and my presentation. It became tiring to explain and eventually as the years passed on I settled myself out. I became far more closed off.

My mind I don’t think will ever be closed in itself but the work and the effort that went into wanting to be different became pretty much the same. People liked what I did and so it was copied and pasted. I lost all interest after that and toned myself down. Eventually I left those people to do whatever and No one ever bothered to come look for me.

I often wonder what happened to many of them… but I don’t question to much now.


It’s been a few days since my last post on here. Trust it wasn’t cause I didn’t want to write but because time is flying faster in every second. The situation remains as is.. Wake, Ready myself, Work, Check some E-mails, Sleep….Repeat

That pretty much has been the past few weeks. Seems boring but work has had me training newbies and I am over all happy for that. People have been in a strange space lately who come to my job. I don’t know if it’s stress or because the year is almost over but a underlined aggressiveness to it all has been happening.

At first I thought maybe it’s my age but I gave that some thought and came to the conclusion it has nothing to do with me. People are really just very hostel recently for no reason about the stupid things and I can’t comprehend why..  Years come and go this isn’t something that we all don’t deal with daily.

The one good thing I am noticing is that people are also starting to wake the fuck up. Questions are being asked about situations that should have been asked YESTERDAY. I suppose we will see how this outcome comes to be but I am over all excited to see the changes coming and going!


The world does change around me. At times it feels like a spinning top and it goes faster but eventually slows down. Some days are so out of control that a person like me who watches things around me go on it feels almost as if it just is going to…stop…

Building rise and buildings fall. People come and people go.. I know that what I have done was out of pure emotion and I often think back on what has happened. I question if much of it had a point? Perhaps it did at the time and I JUST can’t remember it now. My memory is really fuzzy about many things like that.  Just have to keep walking one step at a time.. hmm… so funny.


One of the major “No nos” about the summer is the sun. Everyone gets to go to swim, and amusement parks. Barbecues and all that fun stuff you do during the summer time. It’s easy to forget that you are a NIGHT person and well.. the sun isn’t going to forget.

I learned in the past week that not only do I get sun rashes now but that my skin peels from the drama of summer time fun. Don’t get me wrong I love every second of being active but it has been years since I had done anything outside. I forgot… the sun..did not.

Now lets not place this into the same boat as BURSTING INTO FLAMES.. or ash..or god forbid sparkling.. NO NO NO NO NO… this is far more real and nasty. Rashes suck..but you can learn to deal with it.

COVER YOURSELF!! but don’t like..over do it and over heat yourself. It becomes complicated living this life like this.. but it’s not impossible.


I know it’s been a few moments since I last wrote here. Reason I haven’t is because life has taken some turns for the better and I didn’t notice that it was moving so fast. It reminds me that often things can surprise me “in a good way”.  Which makes me think about how it happens?

I know what I have come to expect of the world isn’t much but from time to time it does give me back something of value. Something of a goal or even a life changing event. Thing such as that are to be held close and put under the microscope. It’s important to treasure moments or even small brief periods of time like that. I am sure on this road it can be invigorating to make it all happen.

So I take this moment now to relax. Stay in a comfortable mind set for the moment and see what comes next? We don’t have control over stuff like this after all but we do always have control over our mind. The place it is taking me right now is good and I will enjoy it while I can.


If I didn’t believe that a single persons thought could change the world I wouldn’t be writing anything. Sounds like something someone would say with a huge ego. However it does hold some truth to it. I almost never talk about politics but today I am feeling for lack of a better word Spicy…

I believe in the idea of a Republican. Keyword… IDEA.. I love the concept of a person being born with nothing. Working hard, educating hard and building up to something only to spread that knowledge, Wealth, and ability to others. It’s a very American concept to come to some place with nothing and work hard/fight for something better. It’s what this land was founded on after all. So the concept of a Republican I know is a good one.

However it’s biggest flaw comes in the idea part. Ideas come from people and people are flawed without question. See in a structural concept the knowledge and money would trickle down to those in need. However people tend to take that idea so with it get selfish, emotional,  and lose touch with what it was supposed to be like.

Take a rich person today. Almost none of em want to be taxed, or told what to do with the money. It’s fair to say because clearly they worked hard for it. Some understand the concept but others will say I give back in my own way. Yet those same people feel the survival need of MINE MINE MINE..

Take care of YOUR family, Friends and those around YOU. Not everyone is entitled to the work you have done. It’s a stupid state of mind to be in and in all my time I don’t see it changing any time soon. Hell if the last 2 years has proven anything it’s that our lack of education and understanding has gone down the drain hard.

I just hope that in the future we understand what is best for all of us will be best for the individual as well..


In life we have places that we can go to that hold true magic. For me Toys R Us has always done just that. I feel peace, joy, and my mind goes completely blank for the few moments I am in that spot. It doesn’t matter which Toys R Us I am at. The moment I see those rainbow glowing letters I feel it. Once I enter I feel a true sense of ease and perhaps young again. Almost like time traveling I feel great and everything that pissed me off or got to me in the days before are gone.

I think perhaps it’s like a drug.. but without any of the negative effects. Hard to say considering I have never done a drug in my life. However I would hope that if it feels half as good as that it make it worth it. Having a place like that in my life makes me a very lucky person. Most aren’t that lucky.


Here is what really REALLY makes me angry. People think that everyone has the same opportunity. “Why don’t you get a better job?” Comes from the mouths of so many people and I often ask the question what do you actually know about me? Do you know my family, responsibilities, education level and health record?

Judgement comes from people who have never been judged and if so never looked at a mirror. If you had people who taught you wrong from wronger you probably are on a good foot. If you had friends who took the time to listen chances are you had a benefit. Learned to drive from someone who knew and had the money to do it.

People are strange and I find it often pisses me off that people speak without thinking.